Sometimes things hit you straight in the face.  I have realized that they normally hit you so hard because they are trying to tell you something you should have known already.  I think I am beginning to realize why I dislike myself so much and why no one would want to be with me.  It really hurts though when you have found the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, the person who completes you.  I love you so fucking much.  I am sorry I can not be the person you dream of or the person who brings you the everlasting joy you deserve.  I try my best, but my best is a weak display of my true feelings toward you.  If I could pick up a 500 pound rock to display my love toward you I would.  If I could buy you the world to display my love toward you I would.  If I could cure cancer to display my love toward you I would.  However, I am only human, I am only my disgusting self.  In all honesty, I can not explain my love toward you because I am only human and my love toward you is stronger than any human bond.  I love you more than love itself.  That is phrase is normally used as a silly cliche but I mean it in its original context.  I will spend every day of my life trying to explain the words I just laid before you.  In the end, you are my everything, my other half. 

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Sometimes It Hurts---Stabbing Westward

So.....

I am stuck in this boring ass class right now.  The only thing that keeps me from falling asleep is my love to my right side.  School needs to end soon because I am so ready to get my life started.  I happen to have schools out by Alice Cooper.  It brings back memories of hauling ass out of school on the last day of High School. 

I need to pee!!!!

I can not wait for Canada.  Its going to be the best trip of my life because its going to be spent with the love of my life. 

Current Location: Class
Current Mood: amused

Hmm....

So this is my first post.  I should probably make it quite kickass, to try and show off my writing skills, or my crazy life.  However, in all honesty, I don't have a crazy life or superb writing skills.  I have been told by my professors to limit my creativity when it comes to writing.  I am told to "state the facts."  This is what happens when you are a Public Relations student.  Live Journal will give me the ability to be a little more creative and relax those stringent writing ideals of mine.

It is really hard to believe that I am getting "older."  I have been informed countless times by the older generation that time flies with age.  This could not be more true and its a bit scary.  Time is an incredible concept, but in reality, it's useless.  I do not want to be confined by a heartless concept which limits my potential and augments my ability to live life by my standards. 

Time would really be scaring the shit out of me if it wasn't for the love of my life, Su-Ling.  With her, anything is possible and time or any other concept, will not keep us from living our lives together.  Many people see love as a emotion but it is so much more.  This love has completely changed my life and has further tought me whats "true" in life.  She has given meaning to everything I have encountered and now I am fucking thrilled that we can create meanings together. 

By the way....Isn't she fucking gorgeous?

Current Location: Middletown, NY
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Black Light Burns - Stop A Bullet